A lot of times you hear people say that their college years were the best time of his or her life. This causes multiple feelings to run through my head. Is my life at its climax right now? Is it all downhill after 22?
In some ways I can definitely see that it is. Especially being a senior days away from graduation, and sitting on the cusp of a new kind of independence which ironically may involve moving in with the parents for a few months in the summer.
College is a time of growth. A time of learning. But it is also, especially in today's culture, a time to get away from the world. To get your independence but not have to really pay for it. A time to step away from many of the real issues in life, and a time to have fun. To make friends. Join clubs. Become who you are meant to be.
And people say that that is the best it gets? That going to parties and being involved in college is the best their lives will ever be?
That to me is sad. I guess I've kind of always had this picture of what life would be. Especially lately as I've started to think about what I really want to do. And that picture for me is really, really exciting. I know this sounds silly since I don't have any definite plans yet for after I graduate, but I am really excited.
The way I have envisioned my future is with people. I want to know people. I want to hang out with people, talk to people, love people. I want to help people. And help people I will. I have really just developed a need to do so in my life this past year, and that is nothing short of the grace of God.
I long to travel. I want to go to Israel and Europe and the Grand Canyon. I want to live somewhere different, maybe Europe or the East Coast. I want to learn more about other people's cultures. I want to learn why people act the way they do.
So perhaps this reason why I don't see college as being the best part of my life is because I see it as a launching pad. I have had these passions come into my life, and God just keeps opening these amazing doors full of nothing short of His grace alone, that allows for me to do his will. And I am so, so grateful.
And yes, I know there will be pain in the future. Loved ones will pass away, money will be an issue, heartache will come... but I know I can make it through.
Because the hope of the world tomorrow and the many tomorrows after that is something that keeps me going when I'm feeling upset. A hope for learning more about this every changing, ever beautiful world. A hope for learning, for knowing, for loving.